I love art. I want to do art.
I can imagine not doing STEM as a job, it’s a blander life, but honestly, it’s eliminating a possibility that could very well drive me into the ground.
However, art,,,.,.,,. art. Living without art. Is that even living?
I know I’m being dramatic and in reality, it would be like the slow forgetting of a friendship but I love it so much. I don’t know why and I’ve tried to explain why but all I come up with is a bunch of half-assed reasons.
Maybe that’s what love is? I don’t know what love is but I love art.
Why do STEM? You get to save people’s lives, be at the forefront of innovation, and get a lot of money. In STEM you work hard and memorize and analyze and heal and watch. It’s a lot like life. It’s not easy, and it’s very diverse. But I don’t love STEM. Sure I can get an A in biology but it’s just not there. Also, science is very close to math and my relationship with math is, precarious.
At the biotech presentation I went to, a speaker who worked in STEN said that you had to love it and if you didn’t you’d get sick of it and hate it. I don’t want to hate my job.
And STEM isn’t a direct pipeline into success, you still have to work. Hard. For many years. After college. Just. Like. Art. So what’s the point of pursuing STEM if I still struggle and I don’t love it? Some may argue that I should take responsibility of my privileges, which are abundant, and do something that’s a HELL of a lot more accessible to me than other people. Being a doctor or an engineer or a scientist would quantitatively help a lot more people than being an artist would. But I’m not structured for STEM in the way I am for art. Failing vs doing something I love and having less money/possibly not helping people is also a risk. Idk man. I love art and I don’t love STEM. STEM is great but I’m very uncertain about my survival in it.
Climate science seems ok, like global warming y’know? but that could be helped in activism, and the problem isn’t science. It’s communication. So maybe climate science + psychology would be best. It’s something I’m interested in and that could help people and has double the money you make as an artist.
Making decisions like these also depend on your own skills though? And I’m not willing to drop art. Pursuing 3 separate fields of study is a lot.
So, no STEM except for climate science, and I like art but it’s kinda scary.